After a brief personal history (childhood, youth, personal relationships, and experiences that have most shaped your life):
Of your darkest thoughts, feelings and desires (which are generally not verbalized with anyone, but only with those who can become complicit in them); Tell me how much place they occupy in your heart and in your life.
Tell me about the attraction and seduction or the power that the works of evil have over you, to break your will, originally oriented towards good (4). Also tell me about the fascination that some of his works exert on you, depriving you of resources in the face of them (forcing you to carry out the evil that is offered to you, without being able to resist it; finding yourself as programmed to carry out the evil that such works carry with them). Tell me in what areas of your life, circumstances or scenarios this fascination with evil occurs in you and what its object is (the evil that you cannot resist).
Tell me if there is any area of your life where your heart has surrendered to evil (which you originally did not want, to which you were initially a slave and to which you have now surrendered, submitting to it); making it the object of your consent, choice and deliberation; clinging to her out of a certain kind of affection that is similar to her love (5). Tell me if you recognize in yourself this love of evil, which seduces and enslaves you:
- Giving yourself over to it, without any resistance, so that evil can carry out all its works in you, without any limit or brake; finding secret pleasure in it (as a solitary and destructive pleasure of yourself), even if it damages your integrity: physical and psychological, moral, personal and human)
- Putting your will at its service, as an instrument (so that evil can carry out all its works through you, arousing itself in others) or slave (who does everything that evil wants, through whom evil can carry out all its designs ) (6).
Tell me about the emotions that accompany consent, choice and deliberation of evil in your heart: euphoria, guilt, identification with evil (letting yourself be penetrated by it, until being seized, as if alienated from yourself by it); amnesia (which barely remembers what followed the consent and choice of evil), the exaltation of evil (as a quasi-religious cult or recognition that the person makes of evil in themselves).
Tell me (if you know him) dthe power that evil gives to those who submit / obey it, to awaken through them that same evil or passion (of which the person is a victim or slave) in the hearts of others; presenting itself as the object of said passion or desire, in which to vent and give channel or fulfillment to it.
Tell me if you recognize this power in yourself, which also tends to enslave those who possess it, becoming a victim of it: coloring all your relationships (even those in which you did not want this to happen or in which this naturally should not happen) and identifying yourself more and more with the object of said passion or desire in the consciousness you have of yourself, without being able to escape from it.
Tell me about the experience of the evil that is in your heart: like a germ conceived in your womb; whose memory remains, not only in your thoughts, but also in your flesh; inclining them both to that same evil that he knew (of which he was the victim or object, with or without consent), subjecting them both to the power and slavery of him.
That re-generates in you a new personality, dominated by that same passion or evil; which is characterized by the love of it (that in some way loves the evil of which it is a victim and slave), to which it surrenders its understanding and will. Try to describe to me what this other personality is like, born from the experience of evil in your heart (in your body or in your soul); What are his works, what are his thoughts and his feelings (if he has them).
(4) Acerca del concepto de Bien y de Mal que se usa en el texto: Se contempla como "Bien" todo aquello que es conforme al ser y la integridad de la persona y contribuye por tanto a su edificación, conduciéndola a una plenitud mayor. Se contempla como "Mal" aquello que destruye y corrompe a la persona, sembrando la enfermedad y la muerte allí donde antes reinaba la salud y la vida, sometiendo a esclavitud donde antes había libertad. Sin juicio ni valoración moral alguna sobre ambos conceptos, tratando solo de analizar toda la fenomenología de las decisiones que los rodean y que afectan a la realización de la propia persona.
(5) El amor a la maldad: Dime si reconoces en ti esta clase de afecto que es semejante al amor y tiene por objeto a la maldad, de la que la propia persona es víctima o esclava; dime en qué clase de maldad se realiza. Amor que identifica a a la persona con aquello mismo que ama, calificándola internamente: hallando su identidad en la maldad que realiza; que va unido a cierta impiedad o endurecimiento / esclerosis del corazón: ausencia de sentimientos naturales de piedad y compasión (que la persona no es capaz de tener ni siquiera para sí misma), falta de vida y humanidad (como si la persona no tuviera alma ni corazón); sintiéndote solo viva en el ejercicio de la maldad, a la vez que también menos humana.
(6) La rendición de la propia voluntad a la maldad: Lleva consigo la victimación, por la que la propia persona se entrega a sí misma a dicha maldad, que le seduce / de la que es esclava, sin límite ni resistencia alguna, para que ésta realice en ella todas sus obras; identificándose con ella, al enjugar en si misma (en su propia carne / cuerpo y alma) dicha maldad; llenándose de ella, dejándose embargar a sí misma por ella.
Lleva consigo también la instrumentalidad y esclavitud respecto de aquella misma maldad de la que se hace víctima; que pone a la persona al servicio de sus planes, para realizar todas sus obras (no pudiéndose resistir a ellas, a las que se ha rendido en su corazón), en orden a despertar dicha maldad en el corazón de los demás.
Dime si reconoces en ti esta clase de victimación (entrega sin límite ni resistencia alguna) respecto del mal que te seduce o te esclaviza, así como la complacencia solitaria y destructiva que dicha victimación lleva consigo. Dime si te has sentido alguna vez instrumento del mal para engendrarlo en otros y someter a otros a esclavitud por él; u obligada (como por una especie de imperativo interior) a hacer el mal que originalmente no querías (sin poderte resistir a él). Dime (si lo sabes) de dónde brota esta inclinación interior de tu corazón.