After a brief personal history (childhood, youth, personal relationships, and experiences that have most shaped your life):
(pride, greed, lust, anger, envy, lack of temperance or self-control in your relationship with people or things, lack of motivation for good that makes you remain indolent, locking yourself in your own solitude) (7 ) ... And of the perverse inclinations that are in your heart
(8).
(7) The concept of passion used in the text: "Vehement feeling or emotion capable of dominating the will and disturbing reason" (cf. Oxford Languages). By its very nature, passion torments (makes one suffer or suffer), leads astray, tears the soul if it does not get what it seeks; It ruins in its search those who are disturbed or dominated by it, by subordinating other values or abandoning other responsibilities, to get what they want.
It obscures reason (to know how to judge what is appropriate), it obfuscates judgment about the reality of things (and can lead to disconnection from it / going crazy), it subjects the will to slavery. It feeds on the object of its desire (consuming other forces of the soul) and is insatiable (it is never satisfied with its object); That's why he tortures / torments and leads astray. It grows at night, with hardly any man or woman knowing how (fed by the object of their desire), until one day it wakes up burning like a lit oven, consuming like fire, without anything being able to dominate it; and it does not calm down until it consumes everything it touches.
Tell me if you recognize as an evil the disordered and violent character that the impulse of passion sometimes carries with it, due to the lack of self-control and of one's own will that it entails, as well as the disturbance of reason that accompanies it; As a consequence, also because of the damage that these things can cause to the physical and moral/psychological, personal and human integrity of others.
Tell me what the dominant passions are in your soul, try to order them in descending order (from the most dominant to the least). Tell me in what thoughts or feelings, situations or behaviors they manifest in you and what is their power, the dominance they have over you; and what is the effect / hangover they leave on you, after having let yourself be carried away (perhaps without control) by them.
(8) Perverse inclinations: Seduction and victimization, mutual dependence between seducer and seduced. Dominance and submission, renunciation of one's own will in the face of evil, deprivation of freedom or senses, up to the loss or voluntary renunciation of one's own conscience. The price paid for executing evil on another, reifying the person, reducing them to an object of passion and market; complacency in one's own desecration and debasement, which becomes like a necessity to calm the anxiety that said desecration and debasement carry with them; exposure to the public gaze of others, which contributes to that same desecration and debasement; The fascination with evil, which knows no truce or rest, sets no limit or measure to evil. Corruption and perversion, depersonalization that brings with it evil... Diversity of paraphilias and methods of stimulation, shared sexuality, etc.
- Seduction: Responds to the will to dominate through the passion or evil that the person awakens in the heart of another; presenting herself as the object of said passion, evil or desire, in whom these can be satisfied.
- Victimization: Responds to the irresistible imperative of fulfilling the passion that one's own behavior has awakened in the heart of another, surrendering oneself as a victim to the evil that it carries with it; wiping her away in herself (in her own body and soul), alienating (alienating and losing) herself in her; to wake her up again, to the extent that he identifies with her.
- Mutual dependence between the seducer and the seduced and the corruption that it brings with it: Despite the victimhood tendency that frequently accompanies seduction, it is never capable of giving full satisfaction to the evil that it awakens, due to the insatiable nature that it has in itself. the passion; establishing a bond of mutual dependence or slavery between both (seducer and the seduced), according to a growing process of corruption.
- Dominion: It consists of imposing evil as tyranny over another and responds to the will to pervert, making another aware of the evil that they did not know before and subjecting them to slavery for it.
- Submission: He finds pleasure in submitting to evil, because he identifies with it, out of love for it; to which he obeys her, worshiping her and of which he becomes her instrument, to awaken her again in the hearts of others. It involves the recognition/worship of evil in one's own heart and instrumentality or slavery (not being able to resist) with respect to it; to bear within himself all his works, becoming a victim of them, wiping away his own evil in his flesh.
It also supposes the solitary and perverse complacency that the person finds when becoming a victim of evil, enduring within themselves the personal and human, physical or moral damage that it brings with it; in what lies the cult that the person grants to evil, due to the sacrifice he makes of himself to it, placing it above his own dignity and integrity and that of others.
- Renunciation of one's own will: It reveals the full consent that the person gives to all evil, to which he or she submits, of which he or she becomes a victim; to which he does not set any limits within himself, out of love for her. It also reveals the complacency in suffering that damage that evil brings with it, to which one surrenders without any resistance.
- Deprivation of liberty: It supposes the irrevocable decision in said consent, by which the possibility of turning back on one's submission is closed, even to one's own harm; which is done with ligatures, jaws, etc. It also involves the attraction of extreme and dangerous situations (which can occur in said deprivation of liberty), with contempt for the person's own dignity and integrity.
- Deprivation of the senses and voluntary renunciation of one's own conscience: Its purpose is the exaltation of pleasure, through the deprivation of some senses in favor of others, for the exaltation of others; until sometimes reaching the loss of consciousness or voluntary renunciation of it, thus completely abandoning oneself to the evil of another or others.
- Price paid: It revalues evil, by having to pay for it, to the detriment of the dignity of the person, making it an object of commerce; renouncing his own will, submitting to any kind of humiliation or slavery, for the price paid for it; sometimes putting in this (the price paid) its value.
- Desecration and debasement of self: Know the sacred value of the person, which is accompanied by the complacency / willingness to attack them (according to a generally irrational impulse). The person degrades himself, giving himself without limit, without restraint or measure to all kinds of evil, to wipe it away in his own flesh (body and soul), without ever being satisfied with it; subjecting itself to a growing, increasingly destructive and degrading slavery; finding secret complacency in it, becoming the author of one's own evil in itself... Becoming like a necessity, to calm the anxiety that said desecration and debasement generate in one's own person.
- Exposure to the public gaze of others: Turns the evil that comes with one's own desecration and debasement into a spectacle, contributing/adding one more element to it; making said evil come out of the darkness, displaying it and making it public for the eyes of others; serving it with its own obscenity, in order to arouse it in others, worshiping it for its exaltation in the sight of all and finding their pleasure in it.
- Fascination with evil, which knows no truce or rest, without brake, limit or measure (until exhaustion or loss of sense), in its surrender to evil, through its own desecration and debasement; which can take place publicly and indiscriminately (with anyone and in full view of everyone): as a consecration of oneself to evil, which she exalts and worships by sacrificing herself to it.
- Corruption and perversion: Corruption begins with the complacency found in evil, surrendering to it with full deliberation and consent. It is characterized by the love of the evil of which one is a victim or slave, to which one's will has been surrendered; serving as her instrument to carry out all her works, thus raising her in the hearts of others
Perversion, on the other hand, begins with the will to pervert or become perverted; giving herself over to all kinds of evil and debasement, to deepen her slavery within herself (even to her own harm at times); making known to others the same evil of which one is a victim (serving as an instrument to carry out all of his works), with the intention of subjecting them to the same slavery. It involves the surrender of one's own intelligence and will to the service of evil (to arouse it in others); acting evil equally with full deliberation and consent, without any repentance. He also supposes the meditation of evil in the heart, conceiving the realization of his works as a plan in the bowels.
Both (corruption and perversion), beginning in one area of life, tend to extend their reign to the entire rest of it and beginning in intimacy or with a specific person, it tends to manifest itself outside; becoming public (without hiding from the gaze of others) and being able to take place with any kind of person (stranger or unknown), in full view of everyone: making obscenity its own exaltation and delirium.
- Depersonalization that evil carries with it: Since evil is always the same in the diversity of its works, it standardizes the people it subjugates; supplanting their personality and making them lose their own natural feelings, as well as their personal and human character in the very evil they carry out (as if they had no heart or carried out evil automatically).
- Diversity of paraphilias and illness that engenders evil, due to the alteration that it brings with it to one's own sensitivity: finding pleasure in the pain that accompanies evil (either as a victim or author of it, who suffers or carries out all its works ) or in other realities that serve as a setting for evil (such as fetishes, public nature, open spaces, the gaze of others, etc.); by the exaltation of pleasure that the realization of evil brings with it through the accompaniment of other senses (the vision of oneself or of others, putting before one's eyes one's own evil of which one is a victim or slave; touch, taste, hearing, etc.); by the emotion caused by the fact of exceeding all limits in the desecration or debasement of oneself; for the obscenity that evil carries with it (for itself and for others), serving as an instrument for said obscenity and the effect that this produces (both in itself and in others)...
Other emotion factors that can exalt the pleasure that accompanies evil is its performance with unknown people (strangers); in a sudden, fortuitous, arbitrary way (for the love of the sole desecration of oneself that evil brings with it); in public (in view of everyone), in open spaces (in the sight of all creation), in dangerous situations (such as heights); with violence (by force, with resistance), with defenselessness (deprivation of freedom), with abandonment to the evil of another or others (renunciation of one's own will or deprivation of conscience), etc. Other paraphilias (zoophilia, necrophilia, etc.).
- Shared sexuality, with a multiplicity of people: of whom one is a victim / to whom the person gives oneself, to erase in oneself (in one's body and in one's soul) all their evil, without any resistance or with violence (by force), with repetition of the actions, until the loss of sense and abandonment of consciousness, finding in his own damage a lonely and morbid pleasure; or, as a co-author of evil, in the company of other people who participate in it, with the exaltation that this usually brings with it from the same passion or evil that is carried out and shared, as well as with the subordination of the person to the itself (even in personal harm sometimes, publicly caused in the meeting, being part of it).
- Confusion, vertigo and daze: such as drunkenness (which stumbles and hesitates in all its undertakings and lacks direction) or madness (irrational behavior, which turns against itself, to the point of losing the sense of reality), senselessness or blindness (which perverts and misleads all the person's paths), recklessness (which puts at risk not only his physical or moral integrity, but also his personal and human integrity) that entails the unchecked action of evil... And salary that it carries with it evil: immense war and enmity in which it immerses itself (with itself and with everything that exists), absence of peace, dissatisfaction, anxiety, exclusion of love within life, loneliness (due to the curse that accompanies guilt) , etc.